Dream: 21 November 1995

This is another dream of violence. I don't remember much, only the moment of killing some woman and her child at a hotel, then the escape -- my partner keeping me from killing everybody else in the place to cover our tracks. And then running away, driving a big truck or an RV, and remembering as we left having left some incriminating evidence and wondering if we should turn around to get it. And then the fear of capture -- the fear of my secret becoming public. At one point, the partners having left to return to the scene of the crime(?), I wonder if they are coming back. I walk down a long icy hill looking for them and, not seeing them, turn back. The climb up was harrowing, like climbing a mountain. The road became vertical at one point, and I had to look straight into the rock to avoid slipping, and had to seek out carefully toe- and finger-holds.

Upon awakening, I am relieved that I have not actually murdered somebody. Why am I dreaming of dead women?

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